This will be my first of many posts… warned!

Who I am will never change! I am writing this blog for a few different reasons, and maybe as I go along it will become clear that I have a lot of thoughts, and just have no idea what to do with them, where they are stored half the time, and could be why they tend to jump out of nowhere!

1- I am a mother, to 3 girls, and apparently am having another little girl. 4 girls… wow! Won’t lie, I was certainly looking for that boy but just wouldn’t happen! ( there is that thoughts jumping out thing again!) So ringing us back to the point, money. I have heard people make a fuss about making money having your own blog, so wanting to help my GROWING family, it seemed suiting to try to earn extra for the fam-jam while finally getting these thoughts out of my head! GENIOUS!

2- As I mentioned in the above, my thoughts are always there. To be honest, its a nagging, lonely world with myself and thoughts without a release! They do so many exchanges a day I wonder if I am stable for frig sakes! Having a blog should help with this right?

3- I am really interested in finding more people who share similar thoughts, feelings and emotions as me! This world is so cold, and division driven, its hard to find real, sincere, true people. I would love to build friendships near and far and take advantage of  “Life”. ( Side note- life your awful hard to understand buddy.)

You want to know what guys? I just want a place to talk, to vent and be myself. In my next blog/post/whatever the “savvy” blogger calls it, Maybe I’ll do a short break down of who I am.

Cheers! Honestybroad xo


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About honestybroad

I am a magic soul who dreams and lives for what the suns shadows can cast in the blackest of spaces. I am passionate about our earth and all creatures in it. I am a person of many different colors and love to show every color brightly and proudly. PROUDLY. I am who I am, and have many deep set wounds from past battles. I am dramatic, chaotic, caring, daring, loving, emotional, busy, cheerful, strong but weak for the weak. I am a mother, I am motherless, and constantly question if what I am doing is right. I cry lots, yell often, debate my every thought, and laugh so hard my smile lines are becoming more embedded into my skin just like my father. My father is my heart, and has taught me more lessons about strength through his life stories then he will ever know. I have been the woman who was abused, cheated on and let down in love. I have been the teenage mother, the high school dropout, and the one living off the government. I have faced many demons, walked on the darker side of life and refused a candle. I have thought about suicide and then have been at the losing end to someone who meant it. I have yelled into the cold freezing night for help, only to say I tried, but not really, and enjoy my pity party. I have lied, sworn, and tore every street I walked down, up and then into flames. I have placed blame and denied any part of it. I hold on to more then I should and worry for the worst. I have lost my faith and regained my own. I have gained love and light through my past pain. I have opened my heart to new things, and became at peace with who I am. I struggle daily to hold my head up, but lately, the struggle isn't so much anymore. I have learned to live without my sweet losses sickness has took. My commitment, constancy, allegiance and devotion is immeasurable and eternity for my fiancé. He is my safe and warm, my breath, my crazy and a million other amazing things. He has changed me, without knowing he changed me, and still loved me. The family, friends and fur babies I have here on earth, I love more then the strum of a guitar string.. or the first note sung. Music and writing is my world and is how I express myself. I see myself as a feather on the glide. The current of my world changes so very rapidly, so I have learned to swim. I have so many different chapters to my book that listing them all is just keep reading. I put mascara and pink lipstick on when I am down, somehow this helps, and I feel my Aunt's soul in me for the rest of the day. I want to reach out, I want to help, and want to inspire. I take my dreams and believe them, I dance them, and I sing them. I love myself more often then not these days and smile when I look in the mirror.

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